Two weeks ago I started my inpatient rotation for my PT degree. I do not mind sharing that it is taking a toll on me physically and mentally. I have been working out, but to be honest it’s been the bare minimum and my diet has not been the best. I’ve never considered myself an emotionally weak person, but I’ve been forced to question that perception in the few weeks. I have skipped workouts to veg and eat ice cream and have had a terrible time getting myself to wake up early enough to go to the gym in the morning. By the time I get to the end of the day I’m telling myself “tomorrow morning.” Today I tried reframing. My workout wasn’t going to be a task at the end of another long depressing day, it was going to be my reprieve, my chance to let out the feelings id spent the day hiding.
It worked. I finished the day and thought about going home and then told myself “you promised me you would go workout.” I went and honestly as I’m sitting here in the locker room, I feel a 100% better. I’m writing this for anyone else who needs a reframe, but mostly for me. So that I remember. My workout isn’t another burden at the end of the day. I can choose to view it as my gift to myself.